Why do you keep talking to me
When I keep messing up?
Why aren't you tired if me
When everyone else is?
Why do you tell me anything
When I just misunderstand?
Why do you not want me I leave you
When you want to break things off?
Why don't you want to talk
When that's the only way we've fixed things?
Why do you tell me you love me
When you don't want to help me?
Why do I stay
When I can tell you want me to go?
Because I misunderstood,
Because I panicked,
Because I cut,
Because I starved,
Because I cried,
Because I failed,
Because I was sad TOO,
You got mad at me.
You blamed me,
And said I hurt you once
When all you ever did
Was make me want to die
And make me feel guilty
That I misunderstood,
That I panicked,
That I cut,
That I starved,
That I cried,
That I failed,
That I was sad too.
You have been trying
For nearly 18 years or your fucking life.
What have you accomplished,
Other than jack shit?
You have parents who hate you,
Who think you're stupid.
Peers that scorn you
And tease you
And force you to be the butt of
Lesbian jokes
When you're not even a girl.
You sit for hours with a pen in hand,
Furiously trying to capture your mind
With drawings and doodles or maybe even
paintings
But you have nothing more than a few scribbles
After hours
And days
And weeks
That bleed with you into years and years
You have nothing to show for it
Except
Inadequacy
Chapters of my Childhood by ChibiRinzler-Chan, literature
Literature
Chapters of my Childhood
Touching memories of my former self,
I take it back to where Life started.
The first day I walked to school, my eyes
Were closed to the first chapter.
Second chapter, I learn to fight,
Shed my skin of weakness, and take to the sky.
Colors locked around my waist, scars marking up my face,
Pain in my body, but not like today.
I woke up a little, seeing that I was falling,
I woke up a little, but fell back to sleep.
I continued my happy daze,
Way back when times were good.
I didn't know "sad," I didn't know "lost,"
How could you ever get scars on a wrist?
I didn't know my beaded bracelets would
Turn into works of art to save my life.
If I c
I Hate Everyone-1 by ChibiRinzler-Chan, literature
Literature
I Hate Everyone-1
You're the biggest dick on the planet and I HONESTLY hope that you die. Like, right now. You ruined my life the moment I've met you, and over six year later, I'm not fucking over it. I've attempted suicide four times because of you. my wrist is covered in scars because of you. I can't show half my body because of you, since I'm always writing your insults all over it. I hate you. I will NEVER feel any affection for you. I will NEVER respect you, and I will NEVER view you as a human being. You are a horrible piece of shit, and you deserve as much pain as you can fucking get. So, seriously, go stick your head in a pool of flaming horse semen, s
WIP ''Technostorm's Anthem'' by ChibiRinzler-Chan, literature
Literature
WIP ''Technostorm's Anthem''
I'll take you all on,
Show you that now I am strong.
Challenge me,
'Cause now I'm free!
You had once broke me,
Torn me,
Wrecked me,
Trashed me,
Burned me,
Now I'm back forever more!
You'll feel my rage,
My pain,
My hate,
My Scorn,
Contempt,
You'll feel my revenge.
I am myself,
Change that not.
I will stand,
I will fight.
Never to fall,
Always to rise.
I am the Technostorm,
Your demise is my prize.
For what shall I forgive you of?
For your endless teasing?
The painful insults that were never-ceasing?
Shall I forgive you for throwing me into walls,
And forcing me to hear your daunting calls?
Or perhaps I shall forgive you for judging me,
And making me think death was the only way I could be free.
Do I forgive you for these insults you made!?
Calling me retarded and ugly, making tears cascade?
Do I forgive you for giving me scars,
And making my heart burn and char?
No.
I forgive you with a fake grin,
All while knowing murder shall be my sin.
Murder of myself for all your pain.
You have made my blood fall as rain,
And never
103 Things To Do Instead of Suicide by ChibiRinzler-Chan, literature
Literature
103 Things To Do Instead of Suicide
103 Things To Do Instead of Suicide
1.Draw a picture
2.Write a song
3.Call a friend
4.Go ice skating
5.Dance in the rain
6.Go to a party
7.Participate in a Flash Mob
8.Watch YouTube videos
9.Play your favorite song on full volume
10.Come up with a dance routine
11.Buy a shaved ice maker and make random shaved ice flavors
12.Paint the walls in your room different colors
13.Run a mile
14.Hike a mountain
15.See how many sit ups you can do
16.Scream as loud as you possibly can
17.Make a collage about something you love
18.Paint your face
19.Wear a crazy costume to the store
20.Learn how to knit and make a sweater
21.Go on a
Reasons to not Commit Suicide by ChibiRinzler-Chan, literature
Literature
Reasons to not Commit Suicide
Reasons to NEVER commit suicide:
-There is that one person, whoever they may be, who loves you. They always have loved you, and they never will love you. No matter what you do, they will keep loving you forever and NEVER leave you.
-You have a family. You may not know them yet, but they're there. They always have been, and they're just waiting for you to join them. So don't give up on that family, weather they're your parents, your friends, or people you haven't even met yet. You will find your family.
-The world would not be the same without you. Because everyone makes a difference. Without you, the world would just be that more colorless
'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through dA,
Not a troll was stirring, nor Grinch in his sleigh.
Deviations were hung in digital Galleries with care,
In hopes that +Favourites soon would be there.
The n00bs were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of Daily Deviations danced in their heads.
And Fella in his 'kerchief, and spyed (https://www.deviantart.com/spyed) with his night-light,
Had just settled down to log-off for the night,
When over in the Forums there arose such a clatter,
Fella sprang back online to see what was the matter.
To the browser window he flew like a flash,
Tore open the tabs and refreshed the cache.
When what to his art-loving ey
This is a short summary of the – in my opinion – most important points I found all over the internet, while studying what it needs to improve your drawing and painting skills. I hope it will be helpful to many aspiring artists!
~Cutebow1plz (https://www.deviantart.com/cutebow1plz):iconCutebow2plz::iconCutebow1plz:
1. Learn the basics
Perspective, composition, color theory, anatomy, lighting & shading – this may be boring, but it's very important. You have to understand the basics to have a foundation to build on.
Also start with realism. You can simplify it to comics or Manga once you have mastered the fundamentals.
2. Have the right attitude
Don't r
Wooden boy ~Thousand Sweep Wiengenlied~ -Gamzee- by Ask-Kaalai-M, literature
Literature
Wooden boy ~Thousand Sweep Wiengenlied~ -Gamzee-
"I am sorry That I even exist."
The boy who believed he was worthless.
the color of his blood was different, from the other trolls.
At and old tree that stands tall in the woods.
he would kneel down their everyday,
and when he did, he would wish and hope, for a single friend.
It was I who wanted to grant,
the wish of that sorrowful boy.
but in my former state, it would have been,
impossible.
But then one day, she just Appeared,
A sorceress who had heard my plea.
with help from her, I, a spirit,
was reborn as a mortal.
The world outside of my old home, part of me wonders if I'll get used to it.
And I could not understand, why that boy would
Hello all,
I'm just finishing up the buffer art for the webcomic which should be launched sometime in August if all goes well. It will be titled Rise From Ashes and the plan is to have it free to read on its own site as well as some extra goodies for subscribers on Patreon. There'll be more info but for now all you need to know is that it features ghosts, necromancy, teenagers and possibly a world war (!).
Hope you like it! And of course, Hollow Fields 4 is still in production. Whew!
Hi guys,
I've been perfecting my pancake mix lately, because strawberries are in season and you know, strawberries and pancakes and nutella and icecream and bewrlkjweaehrwaxnfsmdfawdds...
Oh, and I'm inking Hollow Fields volume 4. I hope everyone loves it when they get to read it, because there's been a big break between volumes (although in the story only a few weeks have passed...).
Also I'm still going on my webcomic, and figuring out a start date for that. I need to get a buffer going before I can launch it, but it's finally looking how I want it too. Yargh! It will be a story for older readers (older than HF, but not mature and gory a
Hey homies! My name's Andrew. I'm an 18 year old male from Arizona, who's interests include drawing, cosplaying, and writing. The fandoms I'm in mostly are Homestuck, Kill la Kill, and Pacific Rim. Especially Pacific Rim. I cosplay Homestuck, and my best cosplay is my Grand Highblood!!
I have been gone from this site for what feels like a few years, and I'm trying to become active here once again. I'm always on my tumblr though, so feel free to chat me the motherfuck up.
Favourite Movies
Pacific Rim that is literally it all that matters to me is Pacific freaking Rim goodb y e
Favourite TV Shows
Steven Universe, Kill la Kill
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
DJ Triplestar, Daft Punk, The Sounds, Zatox, Nicki Minaj
okay maybe a little dead like
at least 2% dead
but whatever
anyways yes hello i will be posting art occasionally but mostly not doing anything
maybe posting sad journals
i might do that a lot actually
hahahahaha
goodnight